A girlfriend of mine is a primary school teacher and mother and she struggled like we all do from time to time especially when her kids where younger. She told me once that she used up all her patience with her kids at school and had nothing left for her own when she got home. Understandably she had her work hat on combined with the fact people where watching her at work lol. but seriously what was most important was her duty of care to the kids she was teaching. The problem was she was forgetting about the duty of care to herself so that her children could enjoy the great person she is. she had to live in the present and appreciate and love the experience of being a mum. I really think we focus too much on our past emotions, hurt, anger etc. and the future what if’s and forget about what’s happing right now, we need to stop and smell the roses so to speak.
Did anyone ever tell you when you first become a mother with a new born child, ‘Happy mum, happy baby’ well same rule applies to us all now, whatever the age of our kids are if we are calm with minimal anger, worry and negative thinking our kids will be to. Yeah I know easier said than done, it’s not easy and may take you weeks/months even years to get it half right but anything has to be better than feeling like you do right now.
I hope you find what I have to say of some use and that I haven't come across to bossy or in your face, I just wish you well because I have been where you are.
Stay strong …