i love the quiet, the house is to full on during the day, but when the house is like this my mind starts to wonder...
no one here to talk to,
no adult stimulation,
just me and the cat and the kids.
is this what life has come to? me and the kids, the kids and me?
when did i turn that corner that said " once your around the bend its hard to find your way back"?
i love my kids, and i love being a single mum, i am in control,well most of the time... my son was diagnosed adhd the other week which was a great relief as i knew he had some sort of condition, but then i find im starting to get the "medication verses diet/exercise/fish oils" . it gets me down when the people around me i feel should support my decission start to question my decission.. i cant believe i have survived nearly 7yrs of hyponess..
i used to tell my family and friends everything that was happening around me and in my life then i started to close up a few years ago and now im starting to open up im finding im being critasized and judged. well i feel like i am, then i wonder should i just keep it to myself again..
i want to involve my family in my issues, iwant their support and points of views without making me feel im making the wrong decisions. i left my friend interstate when i relocated just over a year ago and of course those friendships have dwindled off, they arent what they used to be, i have only made a few friends here, but i dont want to burden them with my issues. they will run a mile..
how do we stop feeling like we are judged.
how do we stop feeling like we are to blame or we are the ones that put ourselves in this situation..
i am normally a strong, confident woman, but its at times like this im not..