You can, and will, be strong for as long as it takes, TanyaR.
What that man said to you, pretend like there is a mirror between you, and the words just flip back at him.
far an example, if he says "You make me so mad", what he is saying is "I cannot hold my temper", you see - it hsa absolutely NOTHING to do with you, he is just pushing buttons. You may be feeling vulnerable, and so it seems to hurt so much more. but remember, what ever words were said, they are just words, not facts, just words.
Poor excuses for men use words as weapons, but as we all know ACTIONS speak louder than words. If he is acting that say, he is no example for you to use, his opinion is worth NOTHIGNG.
I know it can be so hard to forget what you avhe heard, but please, please re-write you inner script and find replacement meanings, He isn't coping, He isn't worth anything, He feels like he'll never be in a r/s again...IF he wants to throw himself over a bridge, so be it - that is not your responsiblity or concern, that is HIS choice.
You have such strength in you, that he could never possess.
Look for it, adn you will find the love for you inside you, and as you do, your world will light up again, and you'll find yourself inundated with offers!!!
but remember, you do not need a man to be who you are, and to be loveable, bless you I hope you find your smile soon